I am on Fire..!!!! No.. Make it Steroids.. ha ha ha...

I have an Urge, i have to quench it.
i am heading down to BBDC - namely "Bukit Batok Driving Centre" to conqueur my fears and complete a test which i have procastinated for years after failing my Erm.... kinda embarrassing to say ... my basic theory 3 times.. ha ha ha...
i am going to register and i want my licence. i want to join the amazing race. Please.

Fishes Do Make Good Doctors.

I think i am such a fortunate guy and he a lucky guy too heh..
he got the "chip & dale" we wanted on the first turn on the machine. *muaks*

We hung it on our DS ( his red , mine black)
The Chip & Dale are sitting on a half of a full heart each when put together.
he took dale - a.k.a the silly one cause its me.
and i took chip - a.k.a the sensible & smart one which reminds me of him

On Saturday 13/09/08, Jon & i Went down town. He was looking for shoes, and i accompanied him to look around for shoes for his cute little feet. heh... we also got tickets for a super retard movie which we did not know about from GV marina. Title : Step Brothers.
We had time while waiting for the movie to begin and was walking around, stumbled upon kenko and saw the interesting and super intriguing "doctor fish" which one of colleague says is 'Long Gao He' - Drain fish ha ha ha...

Sinking Deeper into depression

i am beginning to write so glum stuff...

i dont know feeling down again, at a time like this.

i suck at yoga, i suck at gym, why did i join it in the first place.

i dont blend in anywhere, i stick out like a sore thumb.

i feel i cant chat with anybody's frens, i just feel leftout

i wanted to write about happy things that jon and i did the weekend.

but it seems i gave my chee bye face again. i wanna changed :_(

i dont wanna procastinate , i wanna gym towards a better bod, i wanna finish my degree & etc....

maybe i am trying to lump too many things together. its not i dont wanna do, like yoga when i was in cali, my back has always been like that, i feel pain when i bend down. sigh...

sometimes i feel insulted not encouraged.

i dont even know if i have friends.

i feel stupid at times, i dont wanna feel this way but to be honest, i dont really understand what people are talking. ask me to read a book and i feel lost not knowing the concept or *gist* of the story.

i honestly say this from the bottom of my heart, its a struggle for me learning at 28, i find it difficult to write , read or even understand uni homework. i made a wrong decision again & i wish i could burrow a hole and stick my head in it.

2 days of Extra Leave for these extra SHIT !

Been a bit of turmoil with me, myself & i. 

Today my CFO announced for those that came back during the weekend diligently to help out with all the chores & unpacking and all the shit which people take for granted, WE ARE ONLY ENTITLED TO 2 DAYS OFF.

WTF !!!!!!!!

Went for flower arrangement class , well as they say "xin bu zhai yan"

i was lost in the clouds or i must say losing myself totally. 

wasn't really doing my flowers well, maybe i am too sensitive or i just feel that the teacher was mad at me or just advising me on my flowers but i took it the wrong way.

met Jon jon for dinner, well "happy" , yes i was but i being over shadowed i feel.

Jon : "my confidence is over-shadowing your lack of confidence"

felt so small and all. Asking what is my strength and weakness, sigh... i have never been good at at anything or well nothing much i can say, excel ? worst still.

daddy came to join us for drinks after dinner at the former nafa school there, the four-faced buddha open air foodcourt. i seem lost la... i just can't talk, STUPID is the word i feel and maybe better still DUMB. I feel gwad-damn fucking INFERIOR...

Always Sadness, Never Joy.

i have been taking flower arrangement classes with my colleagues and this week will be my third lesson. no expression can express what i feel now. *Blank* i suppose... feel like a nintendo widow. don't know... *sigh* after move liao, office slowly returning back to normal me..? getting bad to worst.